i’m a girl from hell that lack morals and empathy regarding everyone except for my boyfriend and the rest of the people are just background noise

thank you! i appreciate the kindness 🤍 ྀི 𓂃

I don’t really think about it ^_^" i feel there are certain things you just stop obsessing about when chu have better things to do... i only don’t like when people steal my edits, otherwise being similar is fun! i don’t think i have a personality anyways

i don’t mind... (˵´･ω･`˵) aspd exists on a spectrum, and i have comorbidities w other disorders, so my experience may differ from a lot of my peers. to talk entirely about my perspective as a sociopath (i choose to use this term for myself, but thats a story for another day) would take an entire hour long of yapping... but i’ll try to make this simple although it will be long LMAO the circumstances in which i was raised have affected in my development and behavior, but essentially there had always been “something wrong w me” because it is a part of who i am. sometimes it’s as being someone outside a window pane looking in: we’re in a world that doesn’t understand us, and initially we don’t understand it. there is a feeling of loneliness, because some of us earn to feel belonging, but have to resort into faking in order to fit into society. i spent many years masking and trying to mold myself into becoming what others would find charming or comforting. when the mask would inevitably fall off, it resulted with me being outcasted or hated by others... which i dont really blame them for. i don’t feel empathy (only cognitive), guilt, nor remorse. i feel alienated from people as a whole, so i tend not to care about them or how my actions may affect them, only about few people who are able to catch my eye beyond a superficial barrier. i don’t have empathy for myself either, so i tend not to care about the past nor the future, neither about how something i’m doing may negatively impact me. my sense of morality is selective and it comes from my own beliefs, which tend to be contrasting in comparison to what most consider right and wrong. i don’t feel bad for not having guilt, as i believe guilt is an unncessary emotion imposed by society to punish you for doing things which benefit yourself. i can only manually understand this feeling by how others explain it to me. i don’t think i need to feel guilt in order to act kind. i don’t feel much emotions besides plain apathy or vehement anger. because of this intense feeling of boredom and my lack of self-preservation, i am prone to being reckless and doing things “just because i can”. there have been times i have hurt people and when i tried to understand the motive on why i acted such way: there was none. sometimes it was just as acting on my intrusive thoughts, of which i have many. i have engaged in harmful behaviors throughout my life, such as faking my identity (lying about my name, age, who i was), emotional manipulation, theft, blackmail, stalking, backstabbing others, compulsively lying, and physical violence. i do not feel remorse for it, but nowadays with therapy and by having someone i genuinely love and want to grow with, i have learned to control myself better and repress my impulsive thoughts the best way i can. this doesn’t mean i am redeemed, because i am still prone to having slip ups, and i am aware i will always be like this and always view the world in such way. it’s just that now i realize i can make the choice to be tender, even if i don’t connect w people. this is also why im very open nowadays in regard to my flaws and social alienation so others know what to expect if they want to have me in their lives.

thankyuu.. ❤︎︎♪ i feel like such a std princess

Swagful... ♡ im fumiko mifune irl

hiii aya ilysm my Fabiana Honorato

a girl named aya!…(。・・)ノ✿ she’s one of the few people who have become an extension of me... she’s literally my twin & my half, Our little delusional minds twirl in sync<3 i don’t think i’ll ever have a bond which is deeper than what i have w her.

it’s hard to choose one because having esophagitis has made eating so painful i avoid it to the point i don’t really remember what the things i used to eat taste like anymore aweeeuhhhhhhh... i like yogurt and chicken! (U⩊U*)

i’d say i’m the embodiment of single-target sexuality archetype? if that makes sense LOL... i rarely feel connected to people, so i don’t feel attraction to others at all. i don’t have an exact label for my sexuality, i will only love my boyfriend because he’s the only interesting person in this world for me.

ohh Uhm there are so many... <:3 i need to pretty up a full identity list when i’m not lethargic (impossible challenge) ０１ ⠀⑅⠀ahri.⠀ashley graves.⠀sora kasugano.⠀ these are the most me ones!! quite important to define myself as a whole & from introjectism. ♫ ♪ ０２⠀⑅⠀cersei lannister.⠀sona buvelle.⠀shigure minaduki.⠀nicole (c09).⠀fumiko mifune.⠀dolores haze.⠀mapleshade.⠀luxanna crowguard.⠀kirishima sana.⠀reze. ０３⠀⑅⠀saya.⠀ evelynn.⠀ haiiro neneko.⠀ shinobu oshino.⠀vanilla minaduki.⠀cassie ainsworth.⠀izumi sagiri.⠀ kousaka kirino. ⠀briar. ⠀shiro (ngnl).⠀ ruby hoshino. ⠀dorothy.⠀ privaty.⠀ sugamo mutsuki.⠀ tamachi mahiru.⠀ yumemizuki mizuki.⠀ ariane barnes.⠀ kokoa yoshizaki. ⠀ aida... a bunch of girls from azur lane.

THERES A LOT I CAN THINK OF... i really love my boyfriend, so much it’s tormenting me ❤︎︎♪ but i’ll share the major ones (˵´･ω･`˵) ✿. big brother worship ♡. clingy jealous girl ✿. foolish sibling responsible sibling ♡. single-target sexuality ✿. i love you because i can't control you ♡. because you were nice to me ✿. becoming the mask ♡. lacerating love language ✿. loners are freaks uhmm.. also yandere couple, tsundere, lady macbeth, birds of a feather, devoted to you, divorce requires death, entitled to have you, lady and knight...

tysm ! :3 i’m glad you like reading my unfiltered delusions

husbie!!! ♡ yes, that is us.. I love you sm please noncon me